Tuesday, December 27, 2016

Enjoy Your Moments

Last night I had a dream about my oldest son.  I dream about him often, probably because he doesn't live nearby and I don't see him very much.  He is in Eastern Europe right now and he has been in my dreams even more.  Whenever I dream about my older kids, the are always young in my dreams.  I suppose that is what I miss, my little kids.  Although, I enjoy my big and grown kids so much, I still miss the little ones they were.

One thing I am thankful for is that I made a choice 21 years ago, to be purposeful in my parenting. I knew this was the ONE thing I did not want to screw up.  That is not to say I haven't made countless mistakes parenting, because I have made so many and I think I have learned more from my kids than I have taught them.  What I mean is that I didn't want to have any regrets.  Things I should have done with them or time I should have spent.  I feel no regrets because I have been purposeful with my time with them.  I have made the conscious effort to enjoy every moment and be present in all those moments.

I know people say this all the time, to enjoy your kids, because it goes so fast.  You can't fully appreciate that until your kids start leaving home and you realize that it did actually go way too fast and you still had more to say and more to do.

We are about to enter our 3rd graduation week here and I can honestly say it is the hardest week for me out of all 18 years.  I am a mess on graduation day.  One bad thing about having all your kids a year apart is that you only have a year to recover before another graduation!

It is the culmination of all your teachable moments with your kids in your house.  It is the moment where they start to realize all of the dreams you have had for them and the dreams they have for themselves.  It is a wonderful, beautiful, heartwrenching, bittersweet day.  Here we go again...pass the tissues, please.

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